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14 May 06 - 落花流水 

陳奕迅最近的一首主打歌叫落花流水，負責填詞的黄偉文交出了一首近年難得的好詞；前文對後理之餘，亦帶出散聚無常的道理…

落花流水 – 歌詞

流水　像清得沒帶半顆沙   前身　被擱在上游風化

但那天經過那條提壩  斜陽又返照閃一下

遇上一朵　落花

相遇　就此擁著最愛歸家  生活　別過份地童話化

故事　假使短過這　五月落霞  沒有需要　驚詫

流水很清楚　惜花這個責任  真的身份不過送運

這趟旅行若算開心  亦是無負這一生

水點　蒸發變做白雲  花瓣　飄落下游生根

淡淡交會過　各不留下印

命運敲定了　要這麼發生 

流水　在山谷下再次分岔  情感　漸化做淡然優雅

自覺心境已有如明鏡  為何為天降的稀客　

泛過一點　浪花 

天下　並非只是有這朵花

不用　為故事下文牽掛

要是　彼此都有些既定路程 學會灑脫　好嗎 

命運敲定了　要這麼發生

講分開　可否不再　用憾事的口吻 習慣無常　才會慶幸

講真　天涯途上　誰是客散席時　怎麼分 

流水很清楚　惜花這個責任 真的身份不過送運

這趟旅行若算開心 亦是無負這一生

水點 蒸發變做白雲 花瓣 飄落下游生根

淡淡交會過　各不留下印

但是經歷過　最溫柔共震

我自己也很喜歡這歌詞，至少可說是在云云要生要死又狗屁不通的流行主流中少有的一道清流。歌中萍水相逢的道理，其實老生常談。不過用歌唱出來大家又似乎特別有感受。友儕中幾位飽受感情困擾的朋友，更認為歌詞”點中死穴”；反覆細味日夜播放之餘，更似有所領悟。但反過來，又再問為何”愛的不留，不愛的不走”、”錯愛負人又負已”之類。唉、我只笑問友人可有真的理解歌詞的意義?

其實只要經過幾次離散，不難發現相聚分離都不由自决。云云眾生，能在人海中相交相遇己是有缘；能相知相愛則缘份更深了。要說是生為血親或结為夫婦，其中又何止一輩子的緣份？人生有如坐上一列生命的列車，在許多的車站上又有其他的乘客上落，偶爾坐在身旁，或交換一個微笑或投缘的談下來，或許會遇到知心的會多陪你幾個站，但最终還是會下車，各自繼續自己生命的旅程。身邊的乘客換了幾遍，有的讓你以為會相伴到老而又不然，而往往從未想過的又不經意的留下來；終於有一天，在某一個車站上遇上了那另一半，就一直同行。但最终在你生命走到盡頭，你還是要下車，結果還是那不可免的別離。

說這麼多話，不就是佛家語謂之人生八苦中的求不得與愛別離?

 在命運之前，我們是無力的。缘份來到就該珍惜，缘份要走就要放手。珍惜過其中的過程，缘深缘淺，缘來缘去，又何足掛慮? 流水落花，淡淡交會不留印；但是經歷過最溫柔共震。

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25 Apr 06 - <<終於到了這一天… Mamiya賣盤後記>>

早前Contax， Minota和Konica (在我心目中依然係一個賣相機一個賣菲林)相繼收檔，友儕間的Fans都相當失落。當我還在慶幸”還輪不到Canon”的時候，誰知道就傳來Mamiya賣盤的消息，心中不禁一陣茫然。此刻才感受到原來一直支持的牌子結束是一件如此難過的事。

首次接觸Mamiya是大專的時侯。我大學的攝影會由於崇尚黑房沖印，自然就瀰漫着一股追求更大底片的氣氛。其中有數位師兄分別擁有Mamiya 645Pro 和RB67 等機械，看着那機頂取景和在機背抽出”豆腐刀”的動作就已經令我神魂顛倒，更徨論日後陶醉於其6x45和6x6的銳利影像了。以前一直被”哈蘇”的盛名影嚮，以為中底都是可望而不可即之物，後來得知原來部份舊的Mamiya二手價錢並不高昂，便在某些”有心之士”聳恿下買了一部早期型的C330取代我第一部”非常”不可靠的海鷗4A。

那部Mamiya C330一用之下…乖乖不得了，我愛它愛得要死，我從此愛上Mamiya扎實又低調的相機，更開始愛上lens leaf shutter，愛上抬腳架出街，愛上慢慢拍照，愛上更舊的相機，愛上後來低價二手買入的MamiyaM645，愛上許多許多… 可以說Mamiya就等同於我的中底生涯，也是我對廉價也有好機的執着；對於Mamiya的結束，我真是相當難過。

Sony 的CEO 曾表示Internet對很多公司來說就如史前大滅絕時的磒石，要麼就適應下來，不然就會被淘汰。這番說話不僅適用於電子業，對相機行業也不例外。隨着數碼影像高速普及，相機亦迅速地轉變成為電子產品；生命週期大幅地降至只有一兩年。相形之下，各廠商研發的資金就越是高昂。加上相機愈來愈電腦化，更是把許多以往强調以高光學水平見稱，而又沒有太多電子業務的公司逼至絕景。於是，相機業務就突然由一種四平八穩的生意變成一場豪賭；市場計算往往比產品質素更重要，一次市場失利就足以令公司關門。據Mamiya Homepage 的公司公告所指出，其數碼業務連年的大幅虧損正是其賣盤止蝕的主因。

在這場survival game 中敗陣下來的，Mamiya肯定不會是最後一個。以後的戰爭中，單打獨鬥的贏面會越來越低，技術與資金的合拼(例如Samsung與Pentax，Minota與Sony)將會更有利於宣傳和研發的效益。也許不久將來產品的價格會再創新低，功能又愈來愈好；但我只知道，相機牌子和款式的多樣性(variety)年代己經不再了。

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9 Apr 06 - <<新傾城之戀>>

 <<香港話劇團官方網頁>>

我忘了問你，你愛我麼？
你為什麼這樣說？
詩經上有一首詩：死生契闊，與子相悅，執子之手，與子偕老。人是多麼渺小，可是我們偏要說：我永遠和你在一起，好像我們自己做得了主似的．．．．

摘自<<新傾城之戀>>06'

剛看完新傾城之戀，好正。

當然，也許很多人會覺得這個改篇太通俗，太"不"張愛玲；但這次擺明着是一次讓大眾高興買票，又高興離場的一套戲。劇團老是曲高和寡也不是辦法，偶爾賺賺錢才有得拉上補下呀。現在至少是華衣美服，人靚歌甜，換一個寬容的心情看，也不失是一個滿有娛樂性的演出。

我在今次看舞臺劇之中可謂獲益良多。在舞臺上的深度和燈光，構成一冪冪相當亮麗的畫面；其中能運用在攝影上的構圖着實不少。怪不得我以往一位美術老師(Miss Lee)曾說過要欣賞多樣的表演和藝術才能在固步自封之中尋找突破。今日算是上了寶貴的一課。

還有，點解蘇玉華可以咁靚咁正?所以話女人要吸引，純綷年輕貌美並不就是一切，成熟世故更是難求。

6 Apr 06 - A quick note of the update process…

Things always happen in a way out of expect.

If you ask me which set of photographs I showed in this site is my most favorite, I’ll say the “Event” and “Portrait” series. But the statistic shows that “Snap Around” and “ Panorama Paradise” are the most popular galleries…

Well, I do have lots of fun in working on the snap shots and panorama pictures, but those are the shots that I allow myself to edit them extensively. As such, they means more to me in term of “fun” rather than serious photography.

(Sigh~) May be this implied that I’m in fact not good in what I think, but I’m good at what I don’t really realize?

Anyway, I’m working on the new series of snap shots, I wish I can release the new series by the end of this week.

P.S. Thanks to all the positive comments on my snap shots… I think it’s only because I give myself more chances than others people, to wondering around on street with a camera in hand.

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3 Apr 06 - Screw You~!

This is a picture I took on 12 Mar 06, after a wedding banquet of my high school friend.

I was quite drunk by that time, even for a cheap guy like me have to call a taxi to go home. While I was waiting for the taxi, I just lie down on the staircase, and laugh out without much conscious. The stupid me even take a picture for myself from the reflection of the ceiling cladding.

When I checked the picture the next day, I was so surprised to see my happy face in the picture. How long I haven’t laugh like that? I can’t even remember. Believe it or not, I’m actually a person with lots of facial expression. I am actually a person like to talk and laugh a lot!

It just happened that the disappointing life, and the restricted life style tear me down to such an unpleasant person like now. Now I walk and talk like an old widow, angry of everything, and don’t believe in any bright ideas. And the worst is that I can’t see any exit of a life like this.

And today is Monday again, and my work on the shitty junk task goes on and on for another cycle. The whole damn thing just keeps on revising and revising. I can’t help to wonder what’s the point of my job? It ain’t helping any one, and it ain’t doing any good to the world. But it did consumed my youth and the resource of this world, to keep an useless soul living for another day.

“Screw You~! Give me back what I deserved! Give me back my laughing face!” I want to shout, but who should I shout to? For god sake I have no clue.

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13 Mar 06 - All about Tammy.

I will give you 3 sec, and you tell me honestly whether you have seen this photo (or this girl in some other photos) before.

Counting 3, 2, 1. Time’s up.

So be honest, have you seen this girl before? Yes, she is “Tammy”, the famous Singaporean girl, the “actress” of the widely spreaded “R-rated” home video. I could not tell if this is morally correct or not as no one has the rights to comment on this extremely unfortunate case. I just have some thoughts that I really want to speak out loud to those people who should be responsible for the misfortune of someone else.

The video, was taken with a Nokia cell phone, and it was also no doubt to be taken with the permission of Tammy herself. Well, this is something about her own privacy and no one could say Tammy should not allow the video taking at the first place, alright? So the clips are uploaded, spreaded out, and then being downloaded almost everywhere in the world. For many people, downloading Tammy’s clips is no difference from downloading any other Japanese AV. However, for Tammy, this is no different form being gang raped by thousands of guys all over the world too. I don’t think any of those are so excited to keep spreading this clips to friends and newsgroup did think about the harms they did on Tammy.

Anyway the harm is done, but for those watching too much junk soap opera or junk magazine, the game is definitely not yet over. About a week later, the news of Tammy committed suicide start to spread on the net. To make the whole news sounds more solid and interesting, a complete story of 5Ws (when, why, what, where, who) of the movie clips is also revealed with her news of death! The story comes with juicy story from how and why her cell phone was stolen by the girls who jealous of Tammy, to why and who upload the clips, and even including the response of her school!

Personally, I don’t think the story is true as the content is too much like those we could easily found in those junk magazines. What I concern the most is how those stupid and naïve people who believed in it, and spread the news out with their own additional touch and only having a sense of gossip to this issue. If the outbreak of the original clips is a gang rape to Tammy then the story of aftermath, is just like another gang rape to her, again!

I couldn’t help to wonder, “What do they want from Tammy?” Please, I beg all of you to think in Tammy’s point of view for a second; your parents are too shocked to hear about the clips from their friends and couldn’t say a word to you. All your friends, especially guys, look at you with a kinky look. And wherever you go, you feel like people knows your secret. Let assume your bf is not the one who post the clips online, so now you worry about the embarrassment your bf may have to encounter too. Yes, keep thinking, and you will see how much harm that the clips did to Tammy. Imagine! What do you feel when you heard about the “news” of your own committed suicide, with all those un-true details about yourself? May be you have just clam down from the shocks of having the clips online, but you may actually start to think of killing yourself now.

This is not funny at all. Please, when you are having fun, and making joke of someone else’s misfortune, please think twice about the possible consequences. And if my voice could be heard, please let Tammy has her own life in peace, and give her a chance to move on. We are all guilty to participate in this issue, but any further involvement could make us to be a real murderer.

At last, please remember don’t even try to take any home pornography  either by yourself or your partner. Anyone could be another victim after Tammy.

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7 Mar 06 - Cheer Up!

I finally bought the new album of Jack Johnson today.

Oh my… I love it so much. So that’s why I used it as the background music of the cover page. I am quite sure that I’ll keep using this album as BGM for a while.

Oh, it’s actually a song for kids, but I found lots of courage in it. Fuck that, I just don’t know why all the pop songs we have in Chinese are “死人塌樓” (people got kill and building collapsed – in direct word to word translation). The life in HK is already depressing, and we just need something positive to cheer us up. But every time I turn on the radio, I can only find songs about breaking up with your lover or friend. COME ON! We need to appreciate on something, and to have some happy mind to give us the courage to go on the bumpy road we need to go EVERYDAY! Ok?

Think about that, in these 20 years, there are only a few songs that we can sing in secondary (high) school graduation (李克勤-告別校園時). And for god sake, we only have couple songs to praise on friendship (周華健-朋友, 李克勤-紅日) and one song for the love of your mom (Beyond-真的愛妳). What happened to the people in HK? Wish you have chance to go for karaoke with your friend from Korean/Japanese/Taiwan, then you will see HK is the only place which don’t know how to enjoy the time with singing! (I will talk about Karaoke the next day)

Well, should I stop yelling, enjoy the music from Jack Johnson, and let the whole damn world spin its head off. 靠!

Jack Johnson – Upside Down

Who's to say
What's impossible
Well they forgot
This world keeps spinning
And with each new day
I can feel a change in everything
And as the surface breaks reflections fade
But in some ways they remain the same
And as my mind begins to spread its wings
There's no stopping curiosity

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love I find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's songs
I don't want this feeling to go away

Who's to say
I can't do everything
Well I can try
And as I roll along I begin to find
Things aren't always just what they seem

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love I find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's songs
This world keeps spinning and there's no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinning spinning round and round and

Upside down
Who's to say what's impossible and can't be found
I don't want this feeling to go away

Please don't go away
Is this how it's supposed to be
Is this how it's supposed to be 

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5 Mar 06 - A New Start

From now on, I’ll have my little blog here.

Actually I have tried to start a blog in xanga before, but finally it failed with the god damned lousy Chinese coding system. And to be honest, I think some ideas could only be presented with your own mother language (it’s Chinese to me). And my terrible Chinese typing is the major reason to hold me back from building a blog.

But I don’t care now, at least I’ll say what I like to say, even if you think my English sucks.

I will do what I want to do, from now on.

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